Zebra status!

Today I got a couple stripes on my white belt! Talk about a surprise!

I started doing jujitsu about four years ago, and then I started having issues with my shoulder. So I trained for a bit under a year, and then had to take time off. I got shoulder surgery and I ended up needing about 2.5 years off, because I am a slow healer or something. But I’ve been going to class again for a couple of months. I’m really surprised to get stripes because I don’t know a lot of things. I need a lot of work on sweeps and takedowns in particular. I’m still quite weak as well. Just the other day I was very proud of myself for being able to do pushups again (I only managed 8 pushups today, but I did 20 in a row recently).

After all of this time its nice to have gotten something, even if it is really just a couple pieces of tape. In a little over a month I’ll move away and have to start at another school, and its a little disappointing at this point. I’ve grown to really enjoy the people I’ve been training with, but I’m sure the next group will be great as well.

Progress Report

On Friday I did 20 pushups in a row which is pretty crazy since I didn’t know I could do more than 10 and wasn’t super sure I could even do 10 without being in pain later. But I did it! And Im still sore!

My goal for the past month or so was to start running again, but to be honest I didn’t run even once. In jujitsu we run in circles to warm up so actually I run for a total of about 5 minutes per week so I think thats good enough. My goal is to run a 5k in under 30 minutes. If I can do that, then I will be able to get more out of jujitsu classes too, so its a win-win.

I have been taking time off from climbing for a few months now, and I think I accomplished what I needed to on that front. Climbing was hard on my shoulder but now that I can do pushups and all I think I’m almost ready to get back to it. Im excited for that, but also nervous. Thats because I’m moving, and so Im going to start bouldering after I move and I intend on somehow making friends that way. I figure worst case I get really good at bouldering if I can’t make friends…

In a Rut

The past couple of weeks I’ve been unproductive to say the least. I haven’t had a ton going on, so I wanted to focus on my art more, but I am out of ideas and the ideas I have just seem boring for some reason. Since I don’t want to feel like I’m wasting my time, I’ve tried to will myself to go to jujitsu four days a week. Because thats should be fun and I’ll get in a decent workout as well. But I cannot do it. I cannot go to no gi classes twice in a single week, nor can I wake myself up and go to the 8:30am class full of people I’ve never met.

It seems like depression, but it feels different.

My mood has been fine, but I have zero drive to do anything. Next week I’m going on vacation, so it feels like I should just wait it out. But still I want to be doing something. I have my colored pencils within reach, I have all I need for a reduction print, and I have beyond enough painting supplies.

So what am I doing in this rut. What am I waiting for?

I made a website!

I really surprised myself today by finishing my resume website. Yesterday I told myself I’d finish today as I only had to add a couple files so that people could download my resume and find my social media stuff. (Is it not weird to everyone else that we have work related social media?) But my resume website is “finished!” It looks kind of bad especially since I have no experience and all the filler material is meant to be experiences. Anyways I’m very proud of myself for doing the minimal amount of things that I had planned to do. Go ahead and click the link below and then be sure to leave a comment letting me know that there is too much empty space 🙂


Glimpsing the Future

At the end of last week I had a visit to my future job office. That’s where I’ll start working in 3 months, and it’ll be my first job out of college. Visiting was great because I got to meet a bunch of my future-coworkers and learn a bit more about what will happen when my job starts.

Really the first 6 months are less of a job, and more of a paid learning experience. This whole time I’ve been dying to know what we will go over, and it looks like its gonna be cake for sure. It did give me a bit of a reminder that I’m going to be a software engineer after I’ve been hanging out doing not software things for months. Today I did a thing though. I finally worked on my resume website. I got the layout set up and everything, so now I just need to put the content in and make sure it looks good. So basically all of the hard parts. Still, it is nice to have it even partially done.

When I start “work” we will be learning things like fundamentals of computer science or whatever, because they are preparing us to all be on the same level – even the girl that majored in psychology. The whole thing should be a good time. We will work on cute things like HTML and CSS and everything will be in JavaScript so I guess I should look at how that works again. I won’t though. I will just google which one is double equals and which one is triple equals every time. I am a bit surprised to find we will use JavaScript though, as I could have sworn everyone hated it. But I’m grateful that the focus is on a single language so that unlike in my degree program I will never be told to do a project in a language that I’ve never even looked at.

It’s exciting to look ahead. The people I met were fantastic, and I’m excited to move into my own place!

Prepping to Move

In a couple months I’m going to move into my first apartment that I’ll live in all by myself. I picked out the apartment, which is pretty exciting. The place is kind of garbage but I don’t care. There is a washer and dryer in the apartment and my guests are allowed to park in the parking lot. There is a pool and overall, its actually quite nice. I just think its not great because the hallway carpets smell like my grandma’s house and the floor plan is pretty strange. But these things are not important. I’m glad to know that I have somewhere to live once I go.

So far, I’m barely beginning to pack. I’m having trouble with the purging stage. Right now I have items from every phase of life, and there are many things that I don’t really want to get rid of, but I don’t want to take them with me either. Like my Darth Maul lightsaber – I have zero use for that, but also it makes a sound when you hit someone with it. My tiny apartment won’t accommodate those types of things. Still, I like knowing that once I manage to sort through all of these things, rather than having a ton of junk with a few nice things thrown in, I’m going to have just a few nice things.

I imagine my new apartment and I can’t wait to have my own separate rooms to put things in. My kitchen things will go in the kitchen, rather than in a bag, and I’ll have a trunk where I keep all of my outdoors gear. My baby Joshua Tree will continue to grow by the light of my living room window, and I’ll sit at the table beside it with my laptop, sipping tea from my Spiderman mug. Because adults can like Spiderman too.