Zebra status!

Today I got a couple stripes on my white belt! Talk about a surprise!

I started doing jujitsu about four years ago, and then I started having issues with my shoulder. So I trained for a bit under a year, and then had to take time off. I got shoulder surgery and I ended up needing about 2.5 years off, because I am a slow healer or something. But I’ve been going to class again for a couple of months. I’m really surprised to get stripes because I don’t know a lot of things. I need a lot of work on sweeps and takedowns in particular. I’m still quite weak as well. Just the other day I was very proud of myself for being able to do pushups again (I only managed 8 pushups today, but I did 20 in a row recently).

After all of this time its nice to have gotten something, even if it is really just a couple pieces of tape. In a little over a month I’ll move away and have to start at another school, and its a little disappointing at this point. I’ve grown to really enjoy the people I’ve been training with, but I’m sure the next group will be great as well.


Progress Report

On Friday I did 20 pushups in a row which is pretty crazy since I didn’t know I could do more than 10 and wasn’t super sure I could even do 10 without being in pain later. But I did it! And Im still sore!

My goal for the past month or so was to start running again, but to be honest I didn’t run even once. In jujitsu we run in circles to warm up so actually I run for a total of about 5 minutes per week so I think thats good enough. My goal is to run a 5k in under 30 minutes. If I can do that, then I will be able to get more out of jujitsu classes too, so its a win-win.

I have been taking time off from climbing for a few months now, and I think I accomplished what I needed to on that front. Climbing was hard on my shoulder but now that I can do pushups and all I think I’m almost ready to get back to it. Im excited for that, but also nervous. Thats because I’m moving, and so Im going to start bouldering after I move and I intend on somehow making friends that way. I figure worst case I get really good at bouldering if I can’t make friends…

I made a website!

I really surprised myself today by finishing my resume website. Yesterday I told myself I’d finish today as I only had to add a couple files so that people could download my resume and find my social media stuff. (Is it not weird to everyone else that we have work related social media?) But my resume website is “finished!” It looks kind of bad especially since I have no experience and all the filler material is meant to be experiences. Anyways I’m very proud of myself for doing the minimal amount of things that I had planned to do. Go ahead and click the link below and then be sure to leave a comment letting me know that there is too much empty space 🙂


Keep on Keeping on

Getting into working out can be hard, and getting back into working out can be even harder. I’ve been working my way back into things alone since I sprained my shoulder a while back and school kept me inactive for longer than I should have been. It has been a windy road, and I don’t think it’ll straighten out any time soon.

During the time I was inactive, things were difficult. My mood was garbage, my body felt like garbage, and I lost some weight that I didn’t mean to lose. It’s hard to find the motivation to do anything when your body hurts and your mind is tired. But you have to do it. Once you do, it will get harder because you will be sore, but you have to keep going. I’m writing this now to remind myself that I need to keep going too. This battle is as much mental as it is physical, but that doesn’t mean it can’t be won.

I wish I could say that three weeks into doing jujitsu 2-3 times per week, I feel amazing, but I don’t. But I do feel better. I was afraid going to work out with a new group of people. But I think that actually helped me. Because of my shoulder injury, I had been avoiding certain exercises, but since I didn’t want these people to view me as particularly weak, I’m doing pushups with everyone else – just not as many of them. At first I was a little embarrassed. I still am very slightly embarrassed. The other day we were running to warm up and I felt terribly tired. When I looked at the clock, it told me that we were only two minutes into class.

After a few days of class I stopped pretending to be done doing warm up drills at the same time as everyone else. I’ve been making it a point not to cut corners regardless of who may see. I’ve always been worried that people will think less of me, but now I realize that if I don’t do what everyone else is doing plus some, I’ll never get through group workouts as easily as everyone else. The reason they can do it and I can’t is because they have continuously worked hard and I haven’t. And that is okay. I’m starting my hard work now.

After three weeks of doing jujitsu 2-3 times per week, I feel better. My body hurts significantly less and I’m back up to my normal weight. And with hard work, in a few more weeks I’ll be even better than I am today.

Koi Print


Initial Proof

Finally I’ve finished my first linoleum print. To be fair, it has been finished for maybe a month and a half, and I was just too lazy to do the actual print. To be honest, I can’t even remember when I actually did this. I am currently living with my parents, so I only work on these types of things when they aren’t home. It’s easier that way and I need my peace.

I was really happy with the idea when I started on this, and I still am. The scales were an absolute pain to do. I told myself never again. But I’m already over it and ready to do something else tedious! I don’t enjoy tedious work at all, but the end result is worth it. It has been a long while since I’ve created something I’m proud of, so I’m glad I did this print. It was actually my first time using linoleum, which was interesting as well. As a person with arthritis, I think that speedy-cut nonsense saves a lot of pain, but I’m still happy I gave this a shot.


Finished Print

I actually made myself an online store, which you can find at dejesus.storenvy.com. If you want to support me through my current period of unemployment, get yourself something from my store! Really, the store is simply a way to keep myself motivated. I want to get better at the art thing, and the only way to do that is to practice! And so I shall practice.

Fitness Tracking Strife

The obsession with fitness trackers is very real. I feel it and I know others feel it as well. Otherwise Fitbit simply would not exist. For me its kind of strange, as I love data, but I also love privacy. Apparently I like data more than privacy though, as I am an apple watch owner and until recently I wore the watch every day.

Lately my fitness tracker has gotten on my nerves. I was on vacation for a week, and when I got back and turned on my watch, it told me that I did not meet my calorie burning goals at all last week and suggested I lower my goals. I was out walking every day, I rode a horse, and I rode a camel. I’m pretty sure I met my goals for general daily movement. But according to my watch, I didn’t move at all for the entire week.

Then this past week I’ve been going to jujitsu classes. Of course I can’t wear my watch to class, as that is dangerous and inconsiderate. I feel bad enough when I accidentally hit someone in the face with my open hand. If I hit them with a watch, I don’t think I could face them again. So I’ll be in jujitsu class for an hour or two and my watch is complaining that I need to stand. And when the weekend comes its going to complain that I didn’t exercise enough. But I did.

Don’t get me wrong; I love my apple watch. It tells me that someone texted me when I left my phone on the other side of the house, and it reminds me what comes up next on my schedule. I check it before I leave the house to find out whether or not I need a jacket. But fitness tracking simply doesn’t seem to be a good idea for me. It’s advertised as something for everyone, but I’m not so sure it is. If you’re a dancer it’s probably awesome, or if you run and do yoga. Fitness tracking devices have instilled in me this need to meet its prescribed goals, even though most of my exercise isn’t counted towards those goals. It also makes me feel like walking my dog counts as exercise when walking is never going to be enough for me.

So for now I’m taking a break from the tracker. I’ll use it to run, but not for regular daily use. It isn’t important that I didn’t meet the goals of my watch. I feel that perfect amount of soreness that reminds me that yesterday I worked hard, and next time I’ll work harder.